Still waiting Lord

Last week at church they taught on the parable of the vinyard owner who paid all of his workers the same wage, the ones who worked all day and the ones who only worked an hour. I've thought about this all week because I am often envious (not really jealous) of others. It's not that I think they shouldn't have what they do, I just wonder why God does't want me to have the same. I think we've all heard things like "God will surprise you when you least expect it" "He never tests you beyond what you can bear" "He will wait until you are broken and no longer want it and then you will be rewarded with it" "He will take away the hunger and teach you something new". I agree with all of these statements and have seen a few of them work in my life but I'm still battleing with issues that have consumed me for years. I've prayed over them, kept myself busy so I don't think about them, and I've tried to solve the problem myself, all to no avail. So what happens when you get to this point? I don't know...I'm waiting I guess, because unless we go into debt, unless we move, unless things change, none of my petty (yes they are petty) desires will be filled. Does that make me a shallow, materialistic, petty person, or just unequivically human. I'm unsure, but it makes me feel really crappy.